I walk around with a heavy mind and heavy heart.
Even when I visit my second home, it tears me apart.
The passing of time is what I don’t accept.
But I got no choice with it, but I ain’t hopeless yet.
I was on the “R” thinking bout my Dad’s side.
And how I missed out on these moments cause of mad pride.
I did a lot to stand out in my hometown.
I’m grown now, so there’s feelings that I can’t hide.
I got dreams to be seen in that far away land.
I just had to drive to show the world where I am.
I been in Uptown, Kingsbridge, recently in Queensbridge.
Sitting in Reading just wondering what these things give.
I been in this city before, but something’s different now.
I’m an unknown soul. I get the vision now.
If money is the problem, I’ll figure it out.
I got a high sense of shame, but I’ll break it down.
I don’t really miss the city, really family.
And that’s the part that nobody understands with me.
I use to visit the heights and feel the highs daily.
And my music’s the only time you should ever play me.
I don’t care if I don’t have the city figured out.
When I wish upon this star, this what I think about.
I’m done wishing though, I got some things to give.
And like 96 Hov said it Can I Live?
I started life from North Ninth to I - 95
Since 94, I was born while New York was alive
Knicks winning and Nas spitting on classics
And all I ever wanted was family and the magic
And there's more to come after this...